As you've probably noticed, things are looking a mighty bit sparse around here. I've packed up all my wares, and I am moving on, dear friends. I started this little blog for the purpose of sharing a very difficult and trying time in my life. Through the ups and downs of my struggle with infertility, a new version of myself was revealed to me. Wiser, more at peace, more patient... someone who I am so proud of and a life that makes me happier than words could ever express. I only wish the same for all of you, no matter what path you take to get there.
I thought about leaving my old blog posts behind, for those just starting on their journey or those seeking positive stories about infertility. At one time, I felt like if my raw pain, hope and honesty could help just ONE person get through their day, then that was worth exposing such a deep part of myself... one I had a difficult time seeing in the mirror some days. Moving all of my old blog entries the past two days reopened the past 2 years for me and I feel like I relived the most poignant time of my life all over again. But at this point, those moments are no longer mine to share. They are my daughter's. The story of her life, of how she became to be.
Take care, friends. Thank you for sharing in such a special time in my life.
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
that's it
I have officially read one too many creepy stories about people's photos getting taken from their blogs. All photos of the Ladybug have been removed from this blog and I will not be posting any going forward.
To tell the truth, I have thought a lot about whether or not I should even continue blogging anymore at this point. I started blogging for a specific purpose and now that said purpose has ended, I don't really see why I need to share myself in such a public forum anymore. While I am currently using this as a means to keep a "baby journal" and I am planning on printing all of my posts for the Ladybug to read some day when she's old enough, I am uncomfortable with the exposure I have opened myself up to here. I like getting mom advice and bouncing questions off everyone, but I often get snarky opinions and condescending anonymous comments that just make me roll my eyes. And it's my own fault! I ask for it. Most of my close blogger friends are following me on face.book now, and that feels safer somehow. I have contemplated opening up another private blog like I did in the past, but it just feels like, for me, there is no point to that.
Anyways, I am going to continue thinking on it, and this is not a post requesting anyone to "talk me down" from a ledge here. I simply just don't see the point anymore.
To tell the truth, I have thought a lot about whether or not I should even continue blogging anymore at this point. I started blogging for a specific purpose and now that said purpose has ended, I don't really see why I need to share myself in such a public forum anymore. While I am currently using this as a means to keep a "baby journal" and I am planning on printing all of my posts for the Ladybug to read some day when she's old enough, I am uncomfortable with the exposure I have opened myself up to here. I like getting mom advice and bouncing questions off everyone, but I often get snarky opinions and condescending anonymous comments that just make me roll my eyes. And it's my own fault! I ask for it. Most of my close blogger friends are following me on face.book now, and that feels safer somehow. I have contemplated opening up another private blog like I did in the past, but it just feels like, for me, there is no point to that.
Anyways, I am going to continue thinking on it, and this is not a post requesting anyone to "talk me down" from a ledge here. I simply just don't see the point anymore.
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